What A Week

01/25/13  Whew, what a week is basically all I can say to sum up the week I have had.  It has had major ups and major downs but to be completely honest, I have never felt closer to achieving some of my goals than I have right now.  I am taking acting class at AMAW and starting voice lessons with an awesome teacher on Friday.  I am putting things into motion to move forward.  The craziness basically all started on Wednesday of last week when I received an email checking on my availability for a few days to work on one of my regular tv shows.  I respond with a yes to Tuesday and Wednesday but a no to Monday because I have acting class on Mondays and also have an audition that day.  I receive an email back asking me to make myself available because they think I would be perfect for a role in a music theatre episode of the series which is what they are filming on Tuesday and Wednesday but we may need to rehearse on Monday and it would be terrible to miss out on this great opportunity because I could not be there Monday.  They flat out tell me that I should miss my class.  And luckily I was able to reschedule my audition for Sunday but about an hour away.  (Side note, audition went really well!)  I respond telling them that ok I am in.  This would be an opportunity to be a principal, have lines and sing and dance on a network tv show.  Not to mention be on contract for four days and the money and credit that brings.  You could not imagine my excitement.  Long story short, I wait for further instructions and the never come.  I try to follow up on Sunday because I have no idea where I need to be or what time I need to be to set on Monday; and nothing.  I end up working on this tv show later in the week and nobody mentions anything about the entire thing.  There were a total of four of us who were in the same boat and at least two of the other girls were pretty salty about the whole thing.  Such a disappointment but I decided to have the attitude that I still have a chance for another episode and will think positive thoughts; being salty will get me nowhere.  I manage to keep busy the rest of the week, including working on my other regular tv show on Thursday.  Once arriving to set I am told that I have some fun stuff happening in the next to last scene we are filming that day.  Awesome, I am thinking, and then see my name on the call sheet, and know I am going to have a line.  Again I am overcome with excitement.  The end of the day comes and I am thinking my scene is up, only to have a lot of whispering going on from production and low an behold another girl is brought in for what was supposed to be my part.  Nothing is really said until the end of the day when I receive a very sincere apology from production who wanted me to have that part.  However, somebody owed somebody a favor and I was out.  I was reassured that they would get me next time, which is comforting.  But again major disappointment.  Two very super awesome opportunities ending in major utter disappointment this week.  I seriously could have fallen apart with what happened this past week, packed our bags and given up; and admitting it is difficult to type this without getting a little choked up; but I decided that I am going to keep moving forward and I am so close to taking the next step that I can taste it.  This is a quote that I have thought of multiple times this week and realize like never before how true it is.  "Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." -Winston
Churchill